SPRUCED.

The agony, the worries, the sheer terror, the helplessness of being an adolescent, the loving somebody without them ever loving you back the way you feel you deserve, still thinking that you DO deserve to be loved just as you deserve water and food and air, the feeling of being a fraud, when everybody around you is just perfect. Curtis Sittenfeld writes about being a teenager in an American boarding school, she might as well have written about me and everybody I knew as a teen. She does it with such warmth and empathy that it makes me want to go back to my 16-year-old self and tell her: It's going to be alright, everything's going to be just fine. It took one day and one night to read „Prep" and it if wasn't for the fact that the book made me cry so hard and helplessly that I could barely open my eyes this morning, and if it didn't hurt quite as much to think that, really, I haven't come all that long a way since I was an angst-riden teenager, I would flip to page one right now and read it again.

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Sicherheitsmann: „He, HE Sie. Kommen Sie da raus. Der Fahrstuhl ist für den Dr. reserviert."

Er: „Wann soll ich kommen?"
Ich: „Um acht."
Er: „Dann bin ich so gegen halb neun da."

i shared a house with james in england for three years. he was and is one of those people, who will make you feel extremely loved and cared for when you're with them, but who are notoriously bad at keeping in touch. he was inherently british in that he was an arsenal supporter who could put away ten pints on a good friday night and still be able to stand up straight, very appreciative of take-away currys, sleazy girls and biting wit. ever faithful to longstanding british traditions, he would also take every opportunity to mock anything german. it was his way of keeping me grounded.

this is the text message i got from him tonight, after i hadn't heard anything from him in over two months:

„read a crazy story in the paper today bout hamburgs exploding toad problem. have they attended afghan training camps?"

so bad! yet, so good.